Daniel Caesar – Violet


A good friend of mine shared this video and I’ve fallen so in love with it. What a gorgeous voice he has! Also, I am all about the soothing production on this track. This video gets two massive [#interracial] thumbs up!


2015 Conviction

I haven’t had a definitive new year’s resolution in a long time. I, like many people, have often felt that setting an unrealistic goal for the year is futile. In thinking about resolutions, I decided to look more broadly at beliefs or convictions and how they have the power to affect change in one’s life. With that in mind, my guiding conviction for 2015 has to do with how I perceive success: (insert overused graphic)


I’ve been working quite diligently at a few personal projects and beating myself down when I stumble. Mentally I can see the progress I’ve made, but I find it difficult to overcome a self-inflicted setback. I’m aware that we are all human and we make mistakes, but no matter how much progress I make, or how many times I tell myself I’m trending positive, I can’t help but feel like a failure when I screw up. It’s always as if I’ve derailed the entire train. My mission for 2015 is to stop feeling that way. I want to see the lesson in all my failures and be more intentional about forgiving myself. More importantly, I want to appreciate that I am closer to where I want to be. The final outcome is a direct result of both my successes and failures. What matters is continued, deliberate effort.

I enjoyed this TEDx talk by Mel Robbins. She emphasizes the need for us to parent ourselves into getting what we want out of life and being the people we want to be. I love what she says about never “feeling like it.” This could not be more true. Doing the hard work necessary all the time, but especially after we screw up, is so important.

I hope to maintain this approach throughout the rest of the year. As I move into my mid-20s (oh lawd), self love and forgiveness seem more and more important. I truly believe they light the path to success in all forms.

African Girl in the Prairies

Hello friends! I trust you all had a pleasant and restful holiday. Mine? A riot in the best way possible. While I had been out to Calgary twice before, this year an adventure to Saskatchewan was in the cards. Allow me to chronicle the journey:

1. Meeting Bram in Montreal

Reunited and it feels so good

Reunited and it feels so good

It was great to hang out on the old stomping grounds for a few days before heading west. Bram worked everyday, so I had time to engage in meaningful, personal projects (Frozen, Grey’s Anatomy and House of Lies). I also paid a visit to McGill University, which had been my home for four years. Unsurprisingly, everything had changed and I set off an alarm trying to enter Redpath Library by what is now an emergency fire exit.

Cue: “She doesn’t even go here!

2. Flying to Regina

Landing in Regina, SK

Landing in Regina, SK

Bram and I flew to Regina to meet up with his dad. We all then drove one hour south to Weyburn to visit Bram’s grandma, Mabel. The first thing I was struck by in Regina was how small and quiet the airport was. I suppose being African has brainwashed me into thinking the capital of a territory, province or country always has a busy, nice airport. False.

Nevertheless, I went about trying to blend in, despite not seeing a single black person in the airport. We met up with Bram’s dad and went to pick up our bags. That’s when it happened. My seemingly flawless assimilation strategy blew up in my face when a broadcaster from a local radio station approached to ask me a few questions about “visiting Saskatchewan for Christmas.” It was pretty funny. I laughed a lot as I tried to explain what I was doing in the prairies. She seemed genuinely interested in what an East African girl was doing on her way to Weyburn, SK. It was an amusing experience for all.

3. Weyburn, SK

Mabel is 95 and pretty remarkable

Mabel is 95 and pretty remarkable

I thoroughly enjoyed my visit with Mabel. Not only is she surprisingly sharp for 95, but she is a pretty hilarious person. She is social media savvy, with Facebook being her platform of choice. I made sure to upload and tag this one of us.

I was also able to spend time with Bram’s aunts and uncles from Saskatchewan, who were all exceedingly warm and lovely. Special shoutouts to Brenda and Rena! I hope to visit and ride the combines in the warmer months.

On the second day, we visited the family farm in Oungre which is close to the North Dakota border. I was surprised by how little snow there was even though it was freezing. I was even more surprised by how flat and unpopulated most of the land is. I know a certain Tanzanian man (cough, my dad, cough) who would have had a lot to say about that.

I didn’t see any black people in Weyburn, but I did see a Filipino lady – score!

The first oil rig I've ever seen

My first oil rig!

Flat lands as far as the eye can see

Flat lands as far as the eye can see

4. Christmas in Calgary

Driving to Christmas Dinner

Driving to Christmas Dinner

Calgary Zoo

Calgary Zoo Lights

I had a wonderful time in Calgary. The weather was not too unforgiving, the food was plentiful, and I got to see more of the city than I had before. It was great to spend time with Bram’s family. Given that most of the initial awkwardness from last year has worn off, I’d say we are making the appropriate strides. Special thanks to Curtis & Johanna for your phenomenal generosity. I get teary thinking about it. Also, thanks Patrick for the DavidsTea swag. Sippin’ on some prime vanilla chai as I type this. It was lovely to meet up with Calgary friends, old and new.

5. New Years in Toronto

NYE 2014

NYE 2014

We made it back to Toronto just in time for NYE. I’m not a new year’s fan, but I appreciated being able to spend it with my favourite person and some of our friends. I’ll be doing a post about my 2015 convictions (not resolutions) in the days to come.

Happy new year! Stay tuned 🙂

African Hairdressers and the Axes of Evil

I am officially ready to embrace the cold, folks. Black girls, you know what this means. For everyone else, loose translation: my winter hair has arrived!



If you are about to say something to the effect of “oh, but I thought you were going natural?” save it. Natural means no chemical straighteners. All naturals know the value of protective styling, especially on this godforsaken continent. When temperatures plummet far below zero, my ‘fro needs to hibernate. Fret not, she’ll be back in the spring.

Getting this done was a mission and a half. It always is – CAN I GET A AMEN? Over the years, I have had the pleasure of interacting with many different hairdressers. Due to the styles I prefer, I tend to require the services of mainly African hairstylists (predominantly braiders). In my experience they’ve been at least 70% West African. My years of research in the field have led me to the following conclusion:

An African hairdresser may be one or two, but NEVER all three of the following dimensions:

  1. Friendly
  2. Conveniently-located
  3. Good at her job

Scenario A: Friendly + conveniently-located = a terrible braider


I am beyond unimpessed

Scenario B: An awful person + lives/works at least an hour away from you = an exceptional braider


Hair looks tight..as does something else in this picture

Scenario C: Friendly + good at her job = lives in an entirely different city/country


Would it be crazy to move back to England for a hairdresser?

More often than not, I have equated a good hair braider with a terrible personality. I am sorry, but it’s just always worked out this way. When I have had braiders who were nice, offered me food and took breaks, the quality of their work wasn’t that great over time.

My most recent experience conformed to these expectations. I trekked an hour and 45 mins to the house of a Senegalese woman who literally said no more than 15 words to me all day. May I remind you this braiding experience took six hours? Exactly. She just wouldn’t talk. Trust me, I am not at the hairdressers to make friends. Something else that can be irritating is a hairdresser who doesn’t stop talking for six hours straight. But this woman was watching her Nigerian movies and yapping nonstop on her cellphone (at the same time), yet failed to acknowledge my presence as more than a floating head in need of attention. I loved the end result, but couldn’t be more pleased to get the hell out of there.

Anyone else find themselves bolting at the speed of light to get away from their hairdresser? How do you reconcile not connecting on a personal level with someone who has the ability to craft such an integral part of your physical appearance?

The struggle is real.

I Wish I Were White


I vividly recall having this thought for the first time at the age of seven. I had fallen in love with a popular white boy in my Grade 2 class. As the months progressed and my friends and I shared our crushes, it became apparent who everyone thought should marry whom.

Whitestone School prided itself on being a model for post-colonial Zimbabwe. Black, Indian, coloured and (mainly) white children all attended school together, united by their mutual respect and shared values of nondiscrimination. As we sat side by side in our favourite tunnel in the playground, we reflected on our chosen soulmates:

“Mandi and Nicholas

Chantal and Jonathan

Megan and Jack

Susan and…Nyasha”

“Nyasha?” I asked the ring leader. “I love Jonathan, not Nyasha. I want to marry Jonathan,” I announced defiantly. “Well you can’t because you’re black,” she said matter-of-factly. “You can marry Nyasha instead.” That was it.

It wasn’t as if I didn’t know I was black before then. However, the incident was the first time I became aware that this thing, this “blackness” could prevent me from being equally considered for opportunities. As the years went on, this disconnect manifested itself through fantasy and child’s play. My sister and I donned brightly coloured head scarves that we called our “hair” and fought over who got to play with the blonde, blue-eyed barbie. My parents responded calmly and began buying different kinds of dolls. When my dad returned from a work trip with one black and one brown barbie, my sister and I spent the night fighting over who got the lighter-skinned one. As the younger sibling, I won and named my “Indian” barbie Monique. Although she was not white, she was lighter than me, and I knew that meant she was better.

I started having dreams about the older version of myself. She was smart, successful, tall and…white. Back up a second, what child dreams about growing up to be white? Perhaps one who had been obsessed with Michael Jackson and thought people could magically grow up to be a different race. One day, puzzled by this repetitive dream in which I took centre stage at the MTV Music Awards, my long brunette hair flowing down my back, a twinkle in my (blue) eyes and a firmly gripped microphone ready to serenade the audience, I asked my mother if I could be like Michael Jackson. She laughed enthusiastically and said luckily, I would be black forever.

token 2

I’ll give you $10 if you can spot me in this photo

Somewhere along the line I moved to Toronto: a hub of multiculturalism. A city as diverse as sugar is sweet. I became much more comfortable in my blackness and began to believe it was more than okay.  I noticed in Canada an excessive politeness where the topic of race was concerned (read: “I don’t see race, I just see people” and other pathetic arguments). I saw a willful ignorance about race politics and a need to make comparisons to its failing neighbour, the US. Meanwhile, similar injustices are happening on our very own Canadian soil.

When the grand jury delivered its verdict in Ferguson, many in my social circle expressed their dissatisfaction with the decision not to indict Darren Wilson for killing Mike Brown. Many ask us not to focus on race, but rather class when examining issues like the militarization of the police. Whatever the case, it reified the sentiment that many of us have been fighting not to internalize all our lives: black isn’t good, therefore black lives don’t matter. 

Earlier, I read a powerful piece on Medium about white supremacy and the privileges afforded to white people. While I am not an advocate of “white guilt”, I believe white people being involved in meaningful racial dialogue is crucial. I have many friends and acquaintances who do not engage on these issues, not because they don’t have opinions, but for fear of being branded racist at the extreme or horribly misinformed at the very least. To that, I say we welcome and need your participation. If you are worried about how to begin, try THIS APPROACH before choosing not to share your views.

Most days I love being black. I love my dark skin and my newly natural hair. I am proud of the short, afro-haired, black woman I have become. When society shows us we are not worthy and the system meant to protect fails us miserably, it can be hard to believe in our worth. In times like these, I call on a personal favourite and I rise


It’s Nov. 6th, which means my favourite time of year is fast-approaching. With that said, I know it’s important to be inclusive. Who am I to assume everyone celebrates my favourite holiday as religiously as I do? Regardless, I can’t help but count down to………..NOV. 15th: the first Love Actually viewing of the year!! 

**FAVE SCENE** #younginterraciallove #biased

Every Nov. 15th,  I begin regularly watching Love Actually to ring in the festive season. This means from Nov. 15th onwards, I watch the film (bi?) weekly until Christmas. It’s crucial to begin this marathon in mid-November lest one suffer Hugh Grant/Colin Firth-fatigue before Christmas Eve (AS IF). Also, can we talk about how Thomas Sangster aka Jojen Reed from Game of Thrones still looks EXACTLY THE SAME? Christmas Eve is the pinnacle of the W network’s Love Actually showings. I always know I can count on them. It is also the day when other people are most likely to want to watch the film with me, validating its essential place in our lives.

In anticipation of this event, I have loaded up on rhubarb chai and will be listening to this mashup, which I think you should all check out:




Terrorism is un-Canadian

A little over a week ago, a senseless act of violence was committed at Parliament Hill in Ottawa. Corporal Nathan Cirillo was killed by a shooter who then proceeded to enter the parliament building. The man, identified as Michael Zehaf-Bibeau, continued to open fire, injuring others. His rampage came to an end when he was shot and killed by Kevin Vickers, the sergeant-at-arms of the House of Commons:


While much has been said on the attack, I would like to speak specifically to two key points: 1) the meaninglessness of the words “terrorism” and “terrorist” 2) the assumption that violence is “un-Canadian.”

1) What is terrorism?

Who is a terrorist? Websters’ defines terrorism as “the use of violent acts to frighten the people in an area as a way of trying to achieve a political goal.” But these days the term continues to be used loosely to describe almost any act of violence where the perpetrator’s motives are not readily understood, as well as in situations where they are. Leader of the Official Opposition, Tom Mulcair has said he does not consider the act a terrorist attack.  While the shooter may or may not have had political motives and he may or may not have been struggling with mental illness, I think we can all agree that it doesn’t diminish the horror of what happened that day. That being said, the word “terrorist” holds meaning only for those who wield it to further their own political agendas. This man committed horrific criminal acts and is therefore a criminal in the eyes of the law.

2) How is violence “un-Canadian?”

In the aftermath of the attacks in Ottawa, many people took to social media to voice their concern over what happened. While this outpouring was heartfelt and showed why Canada is a truly remarkable country to live in, it also revealed a gap in our personal narrative. The inherent idea that violence and attacks of this nature are not Canadian and Canada is an innocent bystander on the global scale is simply untrue. For example, this poignant article details Canada’s involvement in recent wars. To put it plainly, this kind of violence is not native to any country. Saying what occurred in Ottawa is “un-Canadian” demeans the suffering and tragedies taking place in other parts of the world i.e. Syria, Nigeria and Israel. In these countries, violence is also un-Syrian, or un-Nigerian. No country condones such attacks and to assume otherwise is ludicrous and insulting to those who suffer from them.